Even with All I Know, the Pandemic was Still Hard

2020 was hard. There was uncertainty - no one knew much about “the virus”, and information was changing day by day. Then, there were the lockdowns. Not being able to hug or kiss my parents, keeping my distance from loved ones, and navigating changes as a small business owner was incredibly tough.

But there was also some good.

For me, 2020 turned out to be a year of opportunity. With more “free” time, it became a year I could focus on myself and a year I could work through some changes at Ananda. As hard as it was, 2020 turned out to be a great year for me. I learned a lot – not only in my business but also in my personal life.

2021 on the other hand, has been more difficult. At the beginning of the year, I was more optimistic. I believed (or wanted to believe) that the virus was under control – as we’ve learned, it wasn’t.

When we locked down in January, I found it manageable. However, this recent lockdown has been way harder to navigate. First and foremost, I’ve had to acknowledge that my beautiful fur daughter is old and sick – so I’ve been spending more time with her before she leaves. Then, there’s working from home – I miss my sanctuary at Ananda.

To be honest, this long lockdown has demotivated me. Sometimes anxiety and fear of the future of Ananda will creep up on me. Will I be able to float through this storm? At times, my doubt and my mind overtake my trust and faith and I'm unable to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I'm unable to see that I don’t need to worry because my angels and the light that guides me are here – and they always bring a surprise when I least expect it.

One of those surprises has been YOU, my loyal clients that continue to support me and my dream during these difficult times. And I'm so excited to welcome you back to Ananda Wednesday, June 16, as the province begins to reopen.

While I'm able to see the light at the end of the tunnel and have hope once again, I really had to turn inward to and show myself grace.

I found support in the Bach Flowers, breathing, connecting with nature, exercise, spending time in the evening being grateful for the day, opening my energy to all my blessings, and receiving and guidance from my angels through the cards.  I learned to be gentle with myself, to give myself more love, and to be flexible and go with the flow.

I also began a ritual every night before I go to bed. I start my diffuser with some drops of lavender oil. Then, I use a Rose Hydrosol to bring upon self-love. After I use one of my Pomanders to clear my energy and write a gratitude list in my journal for the day. I do a short meditation and some breathing exercises to finish off the routine. If I’m feeling too tired, sometimes I skip the journal but I always give thanks in prayer and visualize the next morning – being happy, energized, and healthy. 

When moments in life are hard, it’s easy to become consumed by those hard things. But if you create pockets of time to reflect on the good in your life – even if it’s something small, it can help lift your spirits for the days ahead.

I hope my experience can help in some way and guide you forward.

Love and light,